1. I disagree that meditation or hallucinogens are consciousness-expanding, they’re consciousness-revealing. If you want to expand your consciousness, take it where it’s never been before — usually altered through hard times.
2. Life is not so much an intelligent well-thought over manifestation of your creative self, it’s much less abstract, much more contextual, much more relational, much more subtle. In every moment, we’re caught in some gradual progression of 20+ feelings, intuitions, work projects, and thoughts. And this big messy blob of seasons you go through is what we call life. Nobody has anything figured out. Your heroes are dead specialists.
   1. So, do it. Do it gracefully. Raise the cup high. Say sorry when due. Tell your mom she raised you right. Sing. Scream. Cry. Feel when you’re down — it’s gonna make the coming back up that much more meaningful. Embrace the process. Become the process. Just do it. And get back to work. Until one day, you look at what you’ve done, and you can say you did it your way. And you painted a masterpiece.
3. You will never leave this consciousness. Might as well understand it and shape it.
4. Marriage used to be more than an “event in church”. It’s supposed to be a commitment between two people who love and respect each other ← before God and State, but also in front of their families. It’s a commitment that the 1st time a couple has a fight, they don’t throw away the towel. It meant something for the older generation. It clearly doesn’t now.
5. Your parents are the only ones that are going to be by your side infallibly until the end of time.
   1. They just want what they think is best for me.
6. I feel people who’ve never done anything spend years petrified making a move and when they do, it doesn’t match their ideal expectations and they quit. Really, they’re scared of what people will say of them if they commit and fail.
   1. Meanwhile, I have no thought → action delay, I spend zero time in thinking, I’m always all-in, with the littlest of expectations, and I take every implementation as an experiment to learn something new. And how can I take this experiment personally? My character has been built on the back of monstrous overcomings. I have a stack of f* evidence that I am who I say I am. If I don’t know something, and is meaningful to me, I’ll learn it.
7. Here’s what I would’ve said to any freshman in high-school: yes, it’s true that whatever you decide to do at 18 might not be what you do for the rest of your life. But there’s also an incredibly high probability that you will want to conduct one thing for the rest of your life. Why? Because only by having years of experience, can you get exceedingly better at what you do. It’s a competence thing. Plus, you think, when you’re 40 with a mortgage and 2 kids, you’re gonna tell your wife you want to change careers?
8. The best way to find what you want to do is: try. Start putting together a list of things you really wouldn’t want to do. List why. Then ask yourself, okay:
   1. What have I always been intuitively good at? What could I do on autopilot that other kids struggled at? What did people come to me for advice for? Maths, art, starting movements, photography.
   2. How can these natural traits be cultivated into a career? Who are people with similar skills and what they do in the world?
      1. Who pays for what exact skill in this world?
      2. Then, take two weeks for each: try a photography course, try conducing a physics experiment, try psychotherapy on your friend, etc, etc. Your intuition should be your anchor. Nobody knows because nobody feels free to experiment.
9. Life is whatever you want it to be. You can make your mind believe anything. It's all an illusion the mind creates. We’re all trying to make some sense of it. You might as well convince your mind to live a life of abundance, happiness, success, impact, tremendous joy, laughter, experience. Anyway, that’s what I’m choosing to believe. It’s what has created this life I have.
10. Young inexperienced people take everything to heart. It’s all an insult to the self. Tough character + the knowledge you’re going to die creates this egoless experience as we get older.
11. I feel men provide the physical shell = comfort of a home to women. Without it, she’d had to go truly deep and make things work for herself, or find a man that does that. All her conversations with other women revolve around what happened at home. It is where she feels most comfortable. Any woman that is ignorant of the importance of a male’s model in providing her that will scream victimhood. Any woman that understands her man’s role feels priviliged to pay back to her man and her kids with care and nurture.
12. The more she’s in her feminine, the more she allows and forces a man to adopt the masculine. The less she can/must do, the more he has to do. That dynamic comes natural to both sexes. I believe the uttermost poles attract each other the most.
13. They never tell us why we learn stuff in school.
    1. On an individual level, we learn to become a force for good in this universe, to become men of articulated thoughts and actions.
    2. On a macro level, education fosters productivity. Productivity enforces global trade, etc, etc - Ray Dalio's Principles of Changing World Order book.
14. “Love is acceptance”. When you love someone, you let go of judgement and you let them be themselves. That’s what it means to love unconditionally. Hence the term “tough love” — because you won’t let the person you love be less than who they are. Everybody else is self-serving in the portraying image of you. They want the version of you that suits them best. They want you where they feel best about themselves, not too bright, not too successful, not too happy. Just about their degree of miserable.
15. To think it’s not 90% of luck + being raised right that got me where I am today and have the balls to inflict superiority to other people is foolish and arrogant.
16. Our mind is separate from us. The ego responds to the environment and produces feelings and fear-associated thoughts to protect us. It feeds them to the mind. That’s why we “suffer” from thinking. Mind, ego, and the self = Id, ego, superego — Freud — Peterson’s Beyond Order.
17. All people want to feel good about themselves. Personally, I want to feel good about myself, too, but only if there’s actually a reason for me feeling good, i.e being a good brother, working hard, going through struggle, watching me evolve through internal dialogue, being unshakable, letting go of hurt, etc. I cannot stand people finding the bare minimum to feel good about themselves, i.e convince themselves there’s something meaningful to them about their bare miserable existence. From experience, that always wears out.
    1. Most people don’t want the truth (to know what’s right), they want themselves to be right. I think (like House), I am a truth seeker more than self-indulging, but he has that extreme of allienating people around him because his father never showed appreciation — he wants to be right, because that’s how his hurt ego reinforces itself. Ironically, his rationality is rooted entirely in his psychology.
    2. People spend more than justifying their means of truth than trying to find what the truth is.
18. I have a dellusionally well-refined internal dialogue. I can convince myself to become anything. I can delude myself into becoming anything, into doing anything. I have control over my mind. I can take it to any depths.
    1. The definition of a weak person is one that has no control over his mind — one that doesn’t disidentify himself to his mind. As a result, one that doesn’t put one’s mind to work, i.e thinks of his mind as a tool to get what one wants. - Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.
    2. Nobody can convince me of me. I feel a lot of life is just that — how you handle your internal dialogue. You against you. What you think of you guides your actions.
    3. That’s that law of attraction stuff. The most powerful book ever written.
19. We all maximize feeling good — what the ego feeds the mind to do to protect itself. We feel good when our likelihood of future of survival is high. I long couldn’t connect the two.

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